Dear reader,
Are you still here?
I listened again. To the thoughts that make me feel so little. You ask where I’ve been? I’ve been no where, but inside my head.
My laptop broke, so I can’t write for a while, or so I thought. I feel comfortable only writing on a laptop.
But you don’t understand, how much my inside was burning to write to you. Did you miss me? Cause I missed you dearly, dearest reader.
I don’t know what it is, but I’m questioning everything and if I’m okay with where I am. Midlife crisis? Maybe something like that.
I get in these feelings, and overthink everything, even though, I know that everything is already planned and everything will be okay.
Just the whispers, get to me. When I’m alone and silent. Should keep myself busy more.
I’m not here to complain, but I’ve got thoughts that need sorting out and I have no one to talk to them about.
Sad right? I probably should make a friend. Staying inside my head won’t in any way help me out. If anything, this will slowly kill me.
I’ve been thinking, how comfortable I’ve got with being by myself. On one side, this is good because you’re not in need of others, and aren’t attached and won’t be worried about separation.
But on the other hand being alone, for a minute. Will keep you away from keeping connections, having interactions with people and enjoying the moment with others.
Life will keep you busy, and in your own business, juggling the happening might be hard to keep up with. And if you’re not one that likes to keep tabs, then it’ll get hard, to find your people.
Anywho and what, I should stay away from my insides and find something to keep me busy. Yeah, I think I’m just bored and self-scrutiny and picking on the small stuff is what I do best and complain about.
Message of the day, I’m kicking this one out of the park but listen to yourself. Just for once, if this constant reoccurrence of mind manipulations and self-doubt continues, then your mind is telling you something. You just have to be braver and not be so afraid to listen to it.
Be open and look at it from a different perspective. This message is from my present self to my future self, who’ll stumble back and become a reader for me. Your okay and it’s okay to feel a bit off, but ignoring the problem and this pattern you have, won’t do you any good.
Come back to find me, when you’ve got this all figured out. From yours truly, the current me.
